(1) Healing, resolving, repairing emotional blocks, first believing it is possible to do so as what prevents forward movement is the subconscious belief these blocks are immovable, when they are actually moveable and just need the right kind of nudge.

These are energetic structures in the connectome (neural network) pertaining to the mammalian emotional processing aspect of the brain, which mediate between the neocortex which knows moving forward is possible but the signal does not flow to the brain stem because of the presence of the block.

Yes, there is indeed a meaning to Life. It can be proven scientifically, falsifiably, empirically. Here it is, a letter sent to Dr Tarik Bel-Bahar PhD of the University of Michigan detailing some fundamental principles. This information is new in the sense that it has essentially never been arranged this way to my knowledge but it is nothing new for that scripture has already fully detailed everything – The Reading (Al-Quran) is a fully detailed Book, that makes things clear.

And so:

Peace dear Tarik

Someone asks: how do we prevent the ego from arising? How do we outsmart it? Can we catch the ego in the process? Are there any practices to prevent it?

Short answer: surrender everything moment by moment vigilantly and keep doing it actively, do not watch or look for ego, as then you would be choosing to observe ego, merely surrender and dissolve into union with the environment

Long answer:
The thing is any predictive effort to match the ego will ALWAYS be outsmarted by the ego – all predictive methods use the very mechanism of the ego to carry out the predictions. Not even a catch-22 but you are simply caught. Then there is the spiritual ego, a higher level eternal ego. There is the finite ego which is easily transcended because it is so obvious and blatant but the spiritual ego, the eternal ego, that one will catch you whether you like it or not. In that case, you have to literally face yourself, there is no separation, you have to touch that naked glee and pride within oneself and feel it as your own self, no separation.

No running into ideas like “I am God at the root of it all”, they won’t save you. Spiritual ego is eternally clever, and will only crumble when faced directly and apprehended directly. It hides one layer behind who you think you are at all times. It hides as the Observer itself, so that there is the true observer, and then an observer within, then the rest of the universe, but your blindness will certainly lead you to feel it is the observer itself. True enlightenment is nothing at all – not even “IAMness”, not even that. If there is an IAMness, there is a blindness. It is absolutely nothing, no idea, no concept. Not even God, not even SatChidAnanda, just nothing. Nothing at all, not even void. Just nothing. Then you will begin grasping it.

Keep in mind, you have say, 20% of your faculties as the conscious mind. 80% of you is the subconscious mind which overrides the conscious until it is made conscious itself. Don’t worry about the irrelevant percentages. Focus. Your ego has 100% of your faculties, which is why it always wins. You have to use that 20% to access the 100% and only then will you win.

That is why the true Enlightenment is nothing at all. You have to outsmart the mind itself first with your Spirit Soul, you have to make the mind your tool and servant, if you are servant to the mind, you will fail, if your mind is the servant, you shall succeed. You must transcend the mind, the physical structure of your neural networks, epigenetics and DNA has to transcend it. When your neural network (connectome) reaches 100% self-reflectivity, then the stage of Nirvikalpa is attained. Then after that you can entertain things like SatChidAnanda and God and so on, but prior to the nothing-at-all-not-even-nothingness, your neural networks are physically and informatically non-capable of acting without distortion. This is the Clear Reality. After Nirvikalpa the physical ego is annihilated never to return but the spiritual ego remains. Then when Moksha is attained, the spiritual ego has been annihilated and the ego is dissolved once and for all and there is full body White Light bliss as in the state of Ayahuasca or Iboga.

So the practice you are seeking, has been explained to me by the white tantric enlightenment itself, the Moksha which is the stage of all soul lessons on the worldly plane having been completed, as far as I understand. To enter Moksha, you abide in perpetual surrender, deeper and deeper levels of surrender. Just when you thought you had surrendered, there is another layer of surrender. Always realise you are in a “false vacuum” state, and can always go deeper, a layer deeper, irrespective of how deep, even if you have completely enlightened yourself and there is no further to go, even then there is a deeper layer of surrender. It is literally turtles all the way down. And each turtle you get to, is always the top turtle of the pile and it is still turtles all the way down, unceasingly. So do not be deceived by any plateaus, they are just that. Even when you are consumed by the Light, you have an even deeper layer of surrender – I guess at the deepest worldly layer of surrender, you would surrender into spontaneous combustion and die on the spot.

You always and only ever have these two choices: false light, or True Light. Either stay frozen and block Unconditional Love or surrender and accept Unconditional Love. There is a winner to the human race and the winner is the one who can accept the most Unconditional Love, it is infinite, turtles all the way down. There are many realms available to the human self which have never even been discovered or touched or thought of, and these are realms accessible to all, which none of the buddhas or masters of the entirety of the past have accessed. Because the rabbit hole is that deep, it is bottomless.

It is not possible to observe the ego and act to dissolve the ego, it is only possible to observe continually the action which dissolves the ego. Otherwise you will be observing the ego, and if you are observing the ego at all, you are not observing the lack of ego, you are observing the presence of the ego. Spiritual qualities – spirit level pride, shame, despair, despondency, arrogance, untruth, carelessness, sorrow, sadness, grief, anger, all of these assorted qualities of the eternal ego are to be addressed within oneself. All of these have to be addressed and neutralised for the White Light of Infinite Truth to shine through. The White Light is The Pure, The Perfect, The Holy, The Sacred, The Sanctified, The Dignified, The Noble, The Honourable, The Majestic, The Wise, The Mighty, The Guardian, so any single trace or vestige anything contradictory to that Nature of Nature, shall hold oneself back from the True Enlightenment.

Prior to my own enlightenment (I am passing from Gate 1/Nirvikalpa to Gate 2/Moksha), I set out to destroy the spiritual ego via both self-exaltation and self-depracation. Neither mechanism succeeded. It never could have. Spiritual ego will always outmaneuver you. Always. This is an aspect of Nature, an inviolable irrefutable aspect, it has to be accepted then transcended, it cannot be resisted. The way to outmaneuver spiritual ego is to surrender all attachment and surrender altogether. Only then does spiritual ego dissolve. Nirvikalpa Samadhi is the total dissolution of the physical ego. Moksha is the total dissolution of the spiritual ego.

Thymus gland/higher heart chakra is what mediates here, learn to harness higher heart centre. The flow of the higher heart can either block the Love or accept the Love, it will always do one or the other.

Prior to full Thymus activation, there is no human life, only animal life as sapiens. With Thymus activation, the Christos Light can enter the body and the indwelling Christ begins to embody unto the physical plane. Prior to that, there is no Christ at all, and that is purely animal life, with no semblance or vestige of true Human Consciousness. There is no way or argument around anything I have said or presented herein, it is direct proof and experience from Nature.
http://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Permanent_Seed_Atom

One voice in your brainstem area – the Narrator

One voice in your Heart area – the Experiencer, the Supreme Enjoyer

The 1st voice is used to decode the 2nd voice (“still small voice”). The 2nd voice dominates your Life and is the one that makes the final decision to Act. The 1st voice is the one which guides and pilots the 2nd voice BUT your awareness should be in Experiencer, resting physically in the chest area, not in the head area.

If you are looking for a place to be “lazy”, realise that our inherent tendency to be “lazy” is actually a genuine Love-based need to be resting our selves effortlessly in the Heart Centre so that we can actually experience full consciousness throughout our entire bodies. Then what is “lazy” or “procrastination” becomes Supreme Rest and Perfection in Effort. This is what is known as the Still Point, with regard to Stillness in Motion and Motion in Stillness. There is a Dynamic Flow which shall be addressed further down, knowingness of the Dynamic Flow can be derived from understanding Still Point.

As to the nature of the Supreme Enjoyer, it is of no dignity to be in despair or grief in the presence of the All High – even these choices are a form of ignorance of the Unconditional Love which is so vast and overwhelming that when allowed to flow forth and is accepted wholesale, it dissolves all sorrow altogether.

Chi and Yi – Chi is life force energy, Yi is intention. These are both physical energies, unified fields. Yi leads the Chi, Yi originates from the Spleen-Pancreas. Thymus gland (higher heart) channels the Intent for positive or negative effect. Thymus is the place where you choose Good or Evil, literally. Accept Love or block it, these are the two choices. Uphill ascent, or to hell.

What happens is that if awareness enters headspace and resides there, Yi rests in the brainstem area and becomes ruled by impulses and the Narrator. If awareness is restored to Heartspace then Yi is able to flow through the whole body and act as it is supposed to, thereby eliciting fruitful results for the seeker. The Light and the darkness are not alike, Good is high above evil.

As I say to people, most of whom have been vehemently mislead off the path by New Age vanities, the body has a specific design and works in a very specific way, in perfect Forward Spiral Motion. It does not work any other way. There are no two or three or ten thousand paths to Enlightenment and to God, there is only ONE: Forward. Either you go forward or you do not. The body is specifically designed to the last fingerprint and hair on your head to work with this design. Until we chuck off all the false ideas about the operation of the body, humankind will be denied the privilege and Supreme Grace and Beauty of interfacing correctly with the Universe, with the Supermind, the Cosmic Mind.

There are millions upon millions of hyperfine intricately designed meridians with very specific dimensional relations between themselves. If you align with the Tao, and move Forward, you gain deeper and deeper access to the Supermind, because your Chi essence must first be refined to the necessary levels of informatic subtlety and complexity (think Fluid Dance), to correctly channel through those meridians. You can live in a crude fashion or you can live in a hyper fine tuned precision engineered fashion, this depends explicitly on your ability to humble yourself before God’s Truth and accept that God alone is Supreme, Pure, Dignified, Noble – and accept your limitations in relation to that. And surrender.

There are successive plateaus of morphic resonance. Each level deeper allows deeper access to the Cosmic Wisdom, the 14 billion year old ancient DNA spiral wisdom, and further down the line, the Eternal Wisdom of God itself. Each plateau makes the existing level look like hell on Earth and the next is a higher level of Paradise

I am not attributing purity to myself mind, but this Code is of essence, namely #79:
74. So glorify the Name of your Great Lord.
75. I swear by the locations of the stars.
76. It is an oath, if you only knew, that is tremendous.
77. It is a noble Reading.
78. In a well-protected Book.
79. None can grasp it except the purified (al-muttaharoon)
80. A revelation from the Lord of the Worlds.
81. Is it this discourse that you take so lightly?
82. And you make it your livelihood to deny it?
(The Reading/Al-Quran Chapter 56 Al-Waqiah)

For a long time I have been asking myself a very specific question which I could not put into words for some reason or other. To phrase it, it would be like asking, “What is the magic bullet that allows one to truly live Life the way you want rather than being shaped by your environment?”.

Some would say this magic bullet does not exist but I would beg to differ for as long as truly wealthy people who live rich lives exist, such a bullet does indeed exist. They are using this magic bullet moment by moment to receive untold riches, wealth beyond measure, pure abundance. There must be a way to encapsulate it into a simple realisation. And I have finally received the answer!

To explain how I got to this point requires a bit of backstory. Last year I was meditating with the OM mantra, just gently chanting it at home and going quite deep into the sound. At some point I went really deep and a second voice asked in deep bassy resonance “What do you need?”. And at that point I felt that I had received an answer in the form of a question but I still did not understand what it meant.

So I sat down and wrote a few things down on my notepad. I need food, water, relationships, I needed to do this or that and the other. Yet I could feel Spirit telling me that I had missed the point. So again I sat down and wrote more needs, a few months later. Food, water, relationships came up again but this time I was more specific. And yet still it felt like I was missing the point, like the answer was staring me in the face yet however much I tried, I could not grasp it.

Now fast forward to this year. It came to a point in my Life where I felt that a connection with Iboga would be deeply desired. For those of you who don’t know what Iboga is, well this is a magical root bark from Gabon somewhere in or near the Congo, used by a tribe known as the Bwiti. It is used to connect to the spirit world and generate visionary experiences of a dreamlike nature. Iboga is a profound facilitator of the deepest spiritual, mental and physical healing accessible to mankind. I would place it on a higher level of operation than even the holy Ayahuasca, but that is like comparing apples and oranges, they’re both great in their own ways and you need both to truly Live. So here are my raw trip report notes:

Iboga 15/11/2014:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I B O G A

Fulfill one’s needs before all things and turn your undivided attention to this pursuit. Energy spent fulfilling wants instead of needs is energy wasted. By fulfilling your needs fully you are truly nourished and able to take the best path in life.

Intense surge of pure healing love.

It flooded my brain and I felt it regenerate deep parts of the brain which had suffered issues previously. Breath channels opened fully and deep relaxed breathing became dominant mode. Sinuses perfectly clear for 2 days straight.

Hit like a freight train. There was an intense vibration then a melting feeling of intense warmth of a gloopy viscosity of healing liquid in the brain and body. I felt white light in my cells washing out gunk like the juice in my brain was reacting with it and searing it out of the brain.

Intensely visual experience
Experience of direct contact with sentient intelligence, the Iboga spirit. Held communion for 6 hours of direct conversation and teachings via visual communication.

Deep warm feeling of love emanating from Iboga that washed over the entire body, bathed with love.

Iboga possesses the wisdom and will allow you to see what you need to see. I tried multiple times to probe further on certain teachings and it told me that was all I needed to know and the rest would come in time.

It communicated with a sense of urgency. I lay down still and if I moved around the visions would cease and I would feel the spirit getting irritated as if to tell me to hurry up and pay attention. And it would tell me to lay down and relax fully and breathe deep and then I would go into deep trance. Then it would present a series of visuals, slideshows, animations, filmlike sequences, deep thoughts, all manner of things. It presented me a series of puzzles or tests over several hours, one after the other each occuring within about 2 seconds. The amount of data conveyed, with an intelligently generated question second after second leads one to question wherefrom such data is brought forth, how does a plant contain such knowingness? I could only point to DNA, perhaps the language of DNA is where we would find the answer to that one.

Serene teachings. As always iboga is a master treatment for restoring serenity. The feeling is of peace, and coolness in breathing while being deeply bathed in warm healing love.

Ataxia and nausea for 36hrs post ingestion.

Appetite completely dead for that time, felt iboga repeating a few times more than I care for. Somehow the bitterness of the taste even when it’s in your system 18hrs later makes you feel even more healed, if pukey.

So here is the answer, straight from the plants themselves:

Fulfill one’s needs before all things and turn your undivided attention to this pursuit. Energy spent fulfilling wants instead of needs is energy wasted. By fulfilling your needs fully you are truly nourished and able to take the best path in life.

It was revealed that the original question posed by Spirit was an answer in of itself. Like a Zen Koan, it is to be played in the mind and to become part of the mind, to become the very process by which one engages with Reality.

It was not simply a question to answer there and then for in that case it would bear little fruit. Rather I am to constantly ask this question and constantly fulfill it. Only then can I see what is truly available to me from Life, only then can I see what lies beyond layer upon layer of futile distraction and worry.

Nature provides us the tools to engage fully with Life if we seek to do so but it is up to us to look beyond our futility and engage the clutch itself. A few weeks of employing this mindset has led to a different way of spending money for one. I now look around at what I need and what others around me need rather than purchasing things on a whim. A hard lesson learnt but better late than never methinks.

Let’s see where we go from here. Peace!

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